That was beautiful and poignant, I have felt like that myself.
For years and years that was me, it brings it all back reading such raw, honest emotion.
Thank you for sharing that part of yourself with the world, it makes us all better people to read about someone else's pain.
If that was fiction, it was very well done.
If that is your story:
I look forward to future posts when the pain has lifted and there is more sunlight shining through the rain. Just keep going and never give up on yourself. You are lovable, worthy and perfect.
Your time will come.